February 2012
21 posts
I am burning out at work.
I can’t fit a 40 hour week into 20 hours of work.
I hate how people put me down and discourage me...
I constantly feel like I’m never going to be good enough or make them proud.
This really makes me sad and pisses me off.
I’m tired of feeling like I always need to prove people wrong. It makes me second guess my skills and my motivation for things.
In that past, I got scared and ended up pursuing something I wasn’t passionate about and I hated it; completely regret it. It...
When you get paid half the amount that your work...
…it sucks. Payday gets raped even before the check lands on my desk. I mean, If I got paid my job’s average wage, life would be so much better. But no. Thanks, economy, for being so screwed up.
I should be grateful to have a job at least, but seriously. This sucks. You really have to sell yourself short to get somewhere in life these days.
How sad American society is.
On a brighter...
Valentine's Day
Sometimes I wonder what it’s like to receive flowers from a boy and go out on a dinner date. Like a nice one. Doesn’t really have to be fancy.
Nothing’s gonna happen anyway. I have work and class til 10pm tomorrow.
Happy one year.
I am so bored.
It’s unbearable.
I hate cleaning my room.
I remember my mom would always get mad at me because I’d end up reading things instead of cleaning. I’d read my books, my journals and letters that I’d find.
It’s only inevitable that I find something that makes me sentimental and cry. I always do.
It’s during those moments where I wish I wasn’t such a pack rat.
Yet, for some crazy reason, I always end up...
Receipts.
I found a bunch of receipts, and I’m going out today to get more receipts, but I noticed that a lot of them have surveys and “ENTER FOR A CHANCE TO WIN blahblahblah” stuff. DUN DUn dunnnnnn.
I’m pretty bored, so maybe I can try to win something, haha. *crosses fingers*
Oh, today I’m meeting up with Party Boy so that he can do some financial advising for me. (Hence...
I find it awkward to casually hang out with guys...
I noticed that when I do hang out with guys, it’s usually with a group of guys. Unless it’s with my best guy friends, then I can handle hanging out w/ them one-on-one. :P
Other than that, it’s just too weird. I wouldn’t feel secure or trusting enough to “casually” hang out.
Kyoko has a blog: The familiar night epiphany. →
brain-food:
Theres that moment where its late at night, later than you usually stay up, and there is no sign that you’ll be getting sleepy any time soon. You feel like you’ve read the entire internet. Twice. In a desperate attempt to get sleepy you grab the book you’ve been trying to complete for the past month that has been sitting on your nightstand, only to discover even that can’t hold your...
Good-bye, January. You were pretty good, if I do...
1/01 - NorCal: Dim Sum with Danny’s Family, Valley Fair Westfield, Santana Row
1/02 - NorCal: ABC Cafe, Hillsdale Mall, Heidi’s Pies, Gilroy Premium Outlet
1/04 - Dave & Buster’s @ The Block
1/05 - Downtown Riverside, Food
1/06 - Carrow’s, CalPoly Pomona, Desert Hills Premium Outlets, Cabazon Outlet, Crazy Coyote Tacos, Victoria Gardens, YardHouse, Kabuki Japanese...
January 2012
36 posts
Things I need for work and school... maybe Black...
Laptop for programming on the go and to bring with me to class in spring, but definitely NOT a Mac cuz they’re not good with general programming, especially on Windows/Linux platforms. I feel too slow when I work on a Mac, too. Very flashy and more design-oriented which I don’t need.. and I wouldn’t want to waste time and frustration on having to convert Windows programs to get...
Been out of it lately. Not being attentive at all....
I have three weeks of pictures to upload, but not...
To do for myselfff:
Loans
FAFSA
Taxes (eeks!)
Class registration
Academic/career counseling
Scholarships applications (if I still can? lol)
Take care of my fish tanks
R&R
Try not to eat out or spend money for a week
Spend time with the boyfriend.. been neglecting him all week, and probably til mid-February. :P
Places we want to check out in the next few months…
LACMA &...
I feel like everything I accomplished in my life...
I’m never going to be the cookie cutter stereotypical Filipino daughter who wanted to be a nurse.
Last night runaway
SO annoying how I got a phone call after watching a movie for me to get home.
I really feel like they don’t care about where I am as long as the car is home.
I’m almost 23. I haven’t even drank in over a month. I don’t even drive over 75 mph. I’m not gonna drive the fucking car into a wall if I plan to come home before midnight. I can’t even stay awake to...
Caffeine drive home!
I really think I need coffee to function every day now. So sad!
I hope I can wake up for work in time.
The drive was not so bad other than the massive fog, but I need to keep track of my gas cuz I already killed half my tank and I filled up on Saturday! This car has a larger tank than my last car, too! XD
I think 90 miles yesterday & 60+70=130 today => 220 in two days?? And I have my...
What do people do for their one year anniversary?
I have no idea what to do or give… and it had to be on the gayest day ever — Valentine’s Day. (It wasn’t my idea, either. Apparently it was Facebook’s.) =__=
All I know is that being able to stick around as my best friend for a whole year and see me through my best and worst times must mean something. :)
I’m glad we never had to bother with stupid arguments...
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Building A Fixed-Position Bottom Menu Bar (ala... →
My new play toy for the next few days! :D :D Implementing fixed toolbars, but I need to tweak it so that it shows up on the top of the page instead of the bottom.
I really need to start reading Web Development and Internet Technology articles every day so that I can keep up with the latest technologies and stay inspired. I feel like my inspiration runs low when I don’t take the time to...
To do
Update resume
Update CAP
Work on more Social Media stuff (Twitter, Facebook, etc)
Itineraries
Budgeting
School degree planning
Phone calls
Filing
Sleep
I think there's a correlation with having a new...
Yesterday, my mom tricked me when I was half awake. I knew she wanted to look at cars, so I thought we were going to Corona or something. I didn’t think she was going to take me to San Diego. X__X Her co-worker has a nephew in Poway who works at the Honda dealership there and he helped us out with getting a new car for me.
We ended up getting a pre-owned 2007 Accord EXL. It’s so nice...
I feel like my parents are more overprotective of...
Now I just need to get on their side so I can drive it wherever I want!
*Determination & persuasion hats ON!!!*
The worst thing you can do is ignore me when I'm...
Dear 2012, please stop sucking.
My life is a big pile of poo right now
My car got totaled by a rear end almost a month ago
I still have no reliable transportation
My insurance won’t give me a rental car
My insurance isn’t doing shit because I only have liability insurance, but since I wasn’t at fault, I have to wait on the company’s insurance from the guy who hit me
The other car’s insurance hasn’t responded back to my calls
...
I want kbbq and some good company to eat it...
Random thoughts because it's way too early.
This quote:
“I was not afraid of horror, I was afraid of beauty, of what it could do to me if I let it.”
— Vanessa Veselka, Zazen (via redlmnd)
I confessed something like this to someone, but I feel like expressing how I really feel about things can make someone feel differently about me. Maybe they’ll embrace me with loving arms. Or maybe they’ll get scared.
For the most part, I’m...
Horrible nightmare :(
“I was not afraid of horror, I was afraid of beauty, of what it could do to me if...”
– Vanessa Veselka, Zazen (via redlmnd)
